"Fires in the northland * floods to the south
Put the pedal to the metal * and let it all hang out"
Friday, April 17, 2009
The ex BF's friends came into town last night. I guess now they're my friends too, since they are Good People. Last night the conversation turned to the state of the world today. I had quite a few beers, and and my mouth decided to run away and scare the sheeple. I'm afraid I went into a bit of a rant.
I ranted about the oceans acidifying, about 260DB sonic tests for oil exploraton in the ocean (it only takes 140DB to kill a human, and sound travels much better underwater) I ranted about government oppression, and how the whole system needed to be replaced.
"This isn't right. We're not meant to live like this. We are so separate. For thousands of years we lived in communal family groups. We respected the land. It is only in the last 100 years or so that we have become so isolated. We might have all this fun, easy stuff, but there is something missing. Something fundamentally HUMAN. We are so disconnected. From each other, from our environment, from our reality. I think there is a better way. And I'm gonna go find it."
Fortunately, the West Coasters are not sheeple, and actually took my rant somewhat seriously. The friend I consider my Sister could see that I was talking about building a new paradigm. She was interested and excited.
But on the way home I got bitched out by the ex.
"They're here to have a good time! We don't need to talk about all that gloom and doom sht. Let them have a fun vacation." "You're right. I'm sorry. I know that stuff bothers you. I will make an effort not to talk about it in your presence."
He's sheeple. What a turnoff. He is so blind. So deep in denial. But I can't change that. I can only leave, and live the future I seek. What is really frustrating is that he's not stupid. He sees what is going on, and knows how wrong it is. He just chooses to ignore it. He told me once that if things ever got got THAT bad when TSHTF, he would just put one of those guns in his mouth and call it a day.
When the he said that, it was the end of the relationship.
A few years back my dad took his own life. I've made peace with it now, but it changed me. I can't let anyone matter so much it would kill me to lose them.
I can understand allowing someone to follow their own path, but I WILL NOT STAND BY AND WATCH YOU KILL YOURSELF.
I will be gone. Following my own path. I intend to survive.
I am a militant hippie, an conservative liberal, a practical dreamer, an empath who is fundamentally selfish, a butch femme straight chick that likes auto repair and a multiverse of other contradictions who is still stuggling to be a responsible master of our destiny.
I use lots of nasty chemicals on this blog. It should go without saying, but it is always the responsibility of the individual to READ THE LABEL and use products safely. These are my experiences. You should always take what I say with a grain of salt. If you want real tech support, visit the product's website. They have lots more highly paid lawers than I do. I will not be held responsible for someone else's stupidity, only for my own. And for chrissakes, keep your kids and pets away from this stuff.